i'll be your sound...

had the worst two days ever.

yesterday:

somehow managed to lock my keys in my car right as i am about to leave for school. doesn’t lock unless i press the button or i am driving…so i know i am going to be like a half hour late for school. locksmith’s idea of arriving in 15 minutes is two hours. so as i wait, i know i’ll be late for work and not go to morning class at all. locksmith takes 20 minutes to finally fish my keys out since he couldn’t unlock it. as i am already late for work, make my way…a damn train.

this morning:

for some reason, just start crying…as i am getting ready for work. lol. i don’t know why. just crying. i get to work, fine. my supervisor asks if i am okay. i tell her “i don’t know”. i really didn’t know. she took me into her office, and i just start breaking down for an hour. it was horrible. but i decided to stay to finish my shift. i don’t know what is wrong. well, i know a lot of things are on my shoulders.

i don’t know what to do.

school is starting this week. :(. it’s sad. i’ve been working at the child care center during the summer and have developed great relationships with the children. most of the children will be leaving the center and will be going to public schools because it is, of course, cheaper. i don’t understand how teachers can go through that. :(. but, hopefully, on school off days, those children will come back to stay for that day.